Pathetic

Everything is never according to plan in life, why? cuz that just life is, i never really thought about this until yesterday, where i was left with no dignity left in me, with being such a coward, I maybe look really pathetic in everyone eyes, but believe me when I tell you, I more disappointed in my self more than anyone else, this bitter feeling of letdown is much more unpleasent* compare to spice I eat yesterday, which is really spicy by the way, and anyway I should just talk to her, I should just do something without care what anyone say, I usually never care what else anyone say anyway, but no matter how much I regret my action, the fact remain that it already happen and there is nothing I can do to change that..
and I dont know about her, but the fact that I can take her home is making me quite happy, and she give me a thank you pic which I think its preety cute by the way..
I have to go and make a move soon, its not just that I have to but I really need to, I must do this, I have to fight with my self to be brave enough to do it. cuz I never really good in this kind of thing, and for whatever happen after that is something that she can decide. oh well, i think this is gonna be my last post about this kind a stuff, I am not gonna post anything until I make my move..
lesson I learn in this is "sometimes its better to just do it without thinking rather than thinking it before but never do it"
and "better to regret the action later than regret that never take the action and realize when it's already too late"

Posted in: Moody